One struggle that I face as a Health Coach is that I’m also…a real person. I slip up. I eat my feelings when I’m sad/bored/happy. Yes, happy. I eat handfuls of nuts that I don’t even want while I cook dinner. I eat peanut butter out of the jar and enjoy more ice cream cones than my Instagram account lets on. Are you judging me yet?
And…I eat too fast. It is not uncommon for me to finish a meal in under 10 minutes no matter how hard I try to slow…my…roll. Breathe. Chew. Put your fork down. Breathe…chew…screw it. Done. At restaurants I eat more bread and drink more wine than I truly want because, well, everyone else is doing it! I want to fit in. I want people to LIKE.ME. I’m not boring! See? Chug chug chug. Another glass of PEE-NO GREEEEGIO? Sure! And last weekend, I ate mini cupcakes and coconut macaroons right in front of one of my clients. What’s wrong with me? Do I really want to be that real? I’m all for authenticity, but…
What I’m really getting at is… I’m not perfect.
No matter how much kale, spinach, smoothies, quinoa or chia seeds I consume, I can’t help but to feel like a phony. I know that my clients are drawn to me because I’m relatable (thanks?), but sometimes I wish I was the picture-perfect role model. You know, the type of girl who brings a portable cooler packed with green juices when she travels just to make sure her pH balance stays perfectly…perfect. Me? I have to talk myself off the ledge every time I’m at the airport so that I don’t get within a dangerously close proximity to Cinnabon. Or eat a large chemically-laced cup of froyo for dinner. With all the toppings.
But, I’m slowly starting to let go of my desire for perfection. It makes me feel icky and keeps me stuck, instead of moving forward. I used to think, “Why try at all if it can’t be just right?” If it can’t be…perfect. But perfection is paralyzing. Not to mention, impossible. I’m fairly certain it doesn’t help you win friends. And I have a lot of friends.
So, I’m just gonna keep on keepin’ on…striving to be the best version of ME that I can be. After all, acceptance is the key to growth and change.